Saturday, August 22, 2015
#313 ???
I often don't understand why I'm like this and why people are what they are.
I don't understand why I seem so hard (too, even) to blend with people even if I want to; that it feels hard seeing people hanging out easily with people I actually want to get close to, too.
It happens so many times I start hating myself afterwards. Why am I like this? Why am I like that? Why am I so stiff and afraid of so many things while people make their progress within society?
I know I can't control people so I should start controlling myself when I know I'm aiming something but.
I don't know.
I just don't know.
(Maybe I should just go home so this problem will heal anyway.)
(Maybe I should just go home so I can forget things I actually want to forget.)
I'm right now Miss Pain in The Ass, Miss Butthurt, Miss-You-Know-What-It-Is-and-How-to-Handle-but-You-Won't-Say-It-Because-You-Deny-It-Down-To-The-Deepest-Hole-in-Your-Heart.
Panjang..... sepanjang isi kepalaku (hehehe)
Labels: #:(, #me, #random, #rants
