♫ First of all. it's about my internet connection. for me, it's going bad. the Admin never give me a high speed download again -_- he said it make the connection low. ckck. AND THEN HOW COULD I DOWNLOAD ALL ABOUT MA FANDOM? *stressed by herself*

♫ Second. TASKS.FROM.SCHOOL. oh yeah? will you ignore it? no you can't. We, as students, just can make it right, do it whatever-what-way-we-use.
as i told before, everyday we have to do our homeworks. ckck.
eh, i have a new project from school now! i have to make a narrative (or what?) for a competition. for me, that's okay. i've listed it as my refreshing way, because i really love writing, especially narrtive and fantasy story. but wait, i did it before i know that i must do it with `TOPIC`. really, i can't make it so right with topic. -_- i think i can do it whatever i want but i did wrong ;_; but i'll try to do my best! Bibah, Bellsa, (All with B zz) Fight together with me just this once! XD

♫ Third. New Fandom. Okay, i couldn't say it's new because i've known it before. But i've just stalked them few days ago. They are.. SHINee. yes. I'm officially SHINee World nao~ They're my second favorite after TVXQ of course :D They're so cute, talented and... i can't say i love their ages
do you know? you haven't told it tar in a week i've downloaded more than 6 gigabytes videos about them. JUST VIDEOS. I haven't calculate it with Pictures. ckck. Not only it, i've listened more than 900 times SHINee's songs in my last.fm scrobbler. WTFUDGE? I EVEN DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY? =)) Okay, i just put my SHINee's songs on my winamp and tadamn~! 900 PLAYED? =))

now after SHINee, My mom, Lavie, asked me to listen one of 2AM song, titled 친구의 고백 (Friend's Confession), and i've tried it since i was curious about it. i even downloaded the song when i'm having school today *bad student so what*
and then... i'm silent. you have to listen it :D

the lyrics are so much deep and real. I think. Someone who loves her friend. I think i can show it for you. cotto ne~

It’s been a while
since my heart has been changing,
since I’ve been dealing with it lonesome..
every time you came back,
I hated the guy that made you cry

I’d rather protect you,
although I don’t know if it will make it better…

This time I’ll hold you and love you
is what I thought

Baby, come to me now
And be my lady
I’ve watched you for too long
I stood there with no words,
hiding my pitiful heart.

As a friend, to remain as friends,
I had to push the confessions down my throat
But now I’ll confess to you,
I love you…

You hold my hand and tell me you only have me
Keeping me as a friend,
you say it’s a blessing
Whenever you say let’s never change,
I had to push my feelings down

It might be best if I protect you,
not knowing if it will be better

I kept hearing it but I kept cool
I was too scared to lose you, but…

Baby (Baby) Come to me now (Come to me)
And be my lady (lady)
I’ve watched you for too long
I stood there with no words,
hiding my pitiful heart (No)

As a friend (Your friend), to remain as friends (I know),
I had to push the confessions down my throat (The overflowing words)

That confession (confession) I had to hold it in (I couldn’t say it)
But now I’ll confess to you,
I love you…

You know? it's all right. i've known the hurt feels
as a Friend, we should support our friend, when he/she's in love, with a man/woman that they aren't us. So hard. We should hide our hurt feeling when we know he/she who we love's getting happiness with someone else. yes, it's very hard ^^a
I knew what it feels and not only once ^^a
that's why now i'm really hard to fall in love with someone. i just can say `i love yunho and Taemin` because i don't know who else.. who else? i don't want to feel the pain of love again -_-
actually.. do you know?
maybe one of you have watched `heaven's postman` movie? yes! Jaejoong is one of the cast! XD
hyo joo said "you know? once you feel hurt and pain.. lies can cover it.. lies can make it better."
when i hear it i was going to cry first, and then i... cry again.

and then.. maybe you don't know about this and this isn't too important to you
sometimes, when i tell you i'm in my bad mood, fandom is the best way to make it better. I said Yunho, Yunho, and Yunho in manyyyy times. but do you know? It's all lies. I just tried to make it better with smiling, laughing, doing some gag things, and lying, of course. It'd make us better , sometimes , but it can. Just prove that lies and think that it's all right. We can feel better even just a little~


WHAT THE HELL I'VE SAID? IT'S OUT OF TOPIC!

so.. conclusion? i can't stop play that song in my winamp ^^a

Ash God. what i've talked here? damn it. HAHAHAHHAHA BUT I FEEL BETTER I'VE THROWN MY UNEG UNEG *?* HERE! AND YEAH, MY HOMEWORKS ARE DONE ALREADY *joget*