I got this feeling. when you adore someone then someone else get the same feeling with ya. everytime I think about it, it's not healthy. at all. makes me want to scream and cry out loud. kill and punch someone (tough I can't do that actually). I wan't to heal that feeling but unfortunately I can't. this feeling has grown so fast to be the perfect one. I just want to control my mood everytime I see someone tell about it and keep pretending that I don't know anything while in fact I do know every single thing. Just it. BUT WHY DOES IT SO HARD?! I CAN'T EVEN FORGET HOW SHE/HE KEEPS TALKING IN FRONT OF MEEEEEEH /dies

oke inggris gw mulai ga keruan.
gw butuh pencerahan. sangat butuh. disamping keinginan gw untuk `sembuh` rasanya gw ingin ngelepas org itu. tapi kenapa susah banget...............? EVEN THERE'RE LOTS OF PEOPLE I haven't met yet tapi kenapa? This is the problem. my feeling. can't be pressed, eventough you try to. try hard to.

well, semoga dgn gw post beginian mood bisa-----seenggaknya membaik.